Deep & Meaningless
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I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the queston why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
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  Original :


Avril :


New Found Glory :


One great song,
3 great performances.
Remains as my all-time fav song :D

And so I finally,
finally,
cleared my desk.
manga,
boxes.

Yay, and I'm all tired even before I started studying !
:D How nice is that?

Very.  ¶ 19:41 0 Comments

  6weeks, is all I have to my prelims,
And i can feel the kanchiong already.

So today was the MTPS (Meet-the-Parents-Session)
Wasn't really interested, neither was my mom,
but eeyer bobian must go.

Took a cab down then walkwalkwalk and sat outside the classroom,
waiting for Benji to be over.
My mom then started to 'script' LOL


'eh 等一下要讲什么 ah'
'随便 la'
'later 你又not happy'

- -

Anyway didn't know how she managed to talk 30mins to Mschen,
although it's all the same things.

study, dont play
dont play, study hard,
play lesser, study more.

wahahha then went down to Courts and finally,
finally,

bought a NEW printer!@  ¶ 19:34 0 Comments

  Why so serious? >:)





Caught The Dark Knight.
Woot woot very nice,
nice acting, nice visuals, nice nice.



















And to the late Heath Ledger,
this had to be his best role played ever.
He totally brought out the side of the psychopathic, ruthless villain of Gotham city we all had wanted to see.

Not the Jack Nicholson-ish colourful Joker.

Kudos, and rest in peace.






Watch it please, gotta be the best superhero film I've caught in a long time since Spiderman 2. (Didn't really like 3 ><) And wooooooooooooooo it's getting near to exams. But again, Why so serious? >:)
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  Yawning is associated with tiredness, stress, overwork, lack of stimulation, or boredom. Yawning's cool.
It's contagious,
you get it when you see people yawning, or even when you're reading or thinking about it.
You most probably have yawned while reading this.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaawn

And so my drive only lasted 2days,
and I'm back to my non-studying (aka normal) self again.

Anyway that's not the point.

The point is.


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I got myself a new water bottle! :D  ¶ 22:53 0 Comments

  Exhaustion is a weariness caused by exertion.   ¶ 21:08 0 Comments

  A miracle is a violation of normal laws of nature by some supernatural entity. Ms WangSP was talking about her miraculous comeback from her prelims to her A's today
On how she got something like a DEEFE kinda grade
to a AAABB grade in A levels.
And its all about the TREMENDOUS amount of effort put in,
on how she did nothing but studying everyday,
and how it almost drove her crazy.
She had the push-factor of a need for a scholarship cus her family isn't that well-off,
and cus of other family problems.
And anyway I was sitting at a lecture seat with a cracked table,
and when she reached her point on 'handling the stress',
I leaned abit too forward and the table broke - -
in the LT, with a freaking loud CRACK.
and everyone was like WTF?
HAHAHAHAHA I was just laughing, and raised up the cracked piece of the table.
To think I was still seated at the 3rd row.
she was like "If you're stressed you can break chairs and tables but please don't break it in school please >_>"
And that become the joke for the rest of the day
"Eh Harris you can tell your PE Teacher you dunnid to do conditioning le cus you can freaking break a table!"

Anyway back to the point,
I may lack a true push-factor now,
but when the time comes I think I'll regret it if I hadn't put in enough effort earlier.
I can't see myself frantically studying for 1month,
especially after receiving truly lousy grades for prelims,
getting demoralized and all.

Tried really settling down,
and focusing all my focus (sounded weird) on my work.
But it just doesn't work?
D: seems like I need lotsa practice,
not practicing my work,
but merely practicing sitting down at my desk.
Oh wait my desk's covered with all the junk.

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Just abit more than 100days left for Alevels.  ¶ 20:05 0 Comments

  Life's a struggle.
我睁开双眼踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去难道生命就是这样延续？
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉
每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚
that's true
很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
i don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手？
**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼
**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
不论我走到天南不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
it's kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人
我不信人因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期
我从命运的天台放眼却看不到星空
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我不得轻松
在我心中找不到一个安静的角落
我不能再沈睡下去良心彷佛在笑我
它在说：有几天几夜老妈曾经为你以泪洗面
老爸他只顾己见希望之火只见熄灭
我接起电话是老爸憔悴的声音
虽没见面却不难想像他当时的神情
刚听完他最近失业的消息
脑海里马上浮现祖母的话警告我一定要争气
我已经放弃所有哭的理由
因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头
人生要如何起头？改变要如何起手？
当活在泥沼中要如何才能金盆洗手？
**life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...

Always thought I belonged to the average band,
cus everyone in my class is like failing and I'm failing also.
Mid years : S S U U U (wtf?)
But I forgot the point that my class is like the lousiest in the cohort.
People getting better grades than me are like the bottom3 in their classes.
Whereas I'm like almost the top 8 or something.
People getting 91% for math, practically A's and B's,
and wtfuck I'm failing all.

I have 4months to decide what I become.
Cus that's all left to my A's.
These 4months will decide what I become in life,
what my social status in the society will be,
and how well my life is gonna be for the next 60years.

I've heard of my seniors getting UUU in prelims,
and how hard they worked for 1month
and they end up with an AABB.
I can't help it but applaud their strong will,
and perseverance.
I'm trying to do this right,
once and for all.

It's that damn hard to get into a damn uni.
And even harder for a course of MY choice.
I want to choose my own course,
I don't want the freaking course to choose me.
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Anyway went out with kokboonws ytd
I went to sell my deathnotemanga to this weird guy yesterday.
Had no complaints about meeting in Tampines,
and didn't bother to check whether I dealed him the correct stuffs not.
And didn't speak a word when we met. Lols he's weird.

And anyway walked around,
wanted to play pool but no tables,
then went SAFRA wanted to play bowling,
but a tournament was going on so we couldn't really play.
Then opted for the most enjoyable activity
EAT.
went 85 and had a feast.
And saw junyuan with his sec2 mates.
anyway we ate so much, so fast.
and ended up so damn full.
And talked and talked.
then for some reason wanted a drink, then went 7-11
I thought the 2pokkabottles for $2 promotion thing was still on so i took 2 bottles to the counter.
then the guy said
"2 for $3.60, take 3 for $3 la!"
Then dunno why i ended up buying 3 bottles and finishing them all.

and I agree with junhong that humans are nothing more than just animals.
Or worse.

Life's a struggle  ¶ 21:24 0 Comments

  瘋狂世界
Very, very old song here :D
Explains what I'm feeling right now lols.
Gotten back almost every paper and as expected did not do quite well.
Cus no effort was put into this mids I guess.

"3months to jump from a U grade to an A. Impossible? Nope. Just rather hard."

Reality is harsh.
And when life throws you lemons,
Squeeze them and enjoy your sugarcane drink with them.
They make the sugarcane taste better.

4months to go. hang in there  ¶ 22:59 0 Comments

  Doing Well , relatively.
Results are not what's important.
They don't worry me as much as ______
They don't make me study for the exams as much as ______
They don't make me feel guilty for underachieving.
The only worry now after Mids ---- MY MOM
LOL - -

Damn. Sucks when you got a mom that doesn't compare grades relatively,
that only compares with the tops,
and complains why I can't be one of the tops (LOL)

Just a few more months to go, hang in there.
It's all gonna be over soooooooooon

And sometimes people change so much that,
when they meet on the road,
they don't even say hi or bye
and they EVEN try to avoid you
maybe it's cause one's just shy since they haven't met in a long time,
or that one is just trying to move along and forget these past stuff.
Or that it's just too troublesome.

I'd take #3.
But seems like kok took some other option! (?)
hahahahahaha.

And I swear one day I'm gonna invent a machine that iron clothes when u just put them in.
Like the sugarcane squeezing machine.
Or the banmian making machine.

I DO get bored of ironing.  ¶ 22:01 0 Comments

  It's barely a week now, and people, we're supposed to start studying now.
It's like on msn every now and then I would see a
"eh i go study liao, "

Hope I'll tide over this tough period with mindless studying/revision and enough practice,
and it'll all be over, graduating from 12 years of retarded studying (okay maybe the first 8 was fun I guess)
Bolded HOPE cus I just now that I can't.
Fell asleep just now just after 30mins of work D:

TPJC having prelims in just 5-6 weeks,
makes me feel anxious for them (and a little for me mine's in 7-8 weeks lol)
OH GOD DANG IT'S THE FREAKING PRELIMS AND IN A WHILE
IT'S GONNA BE THE FREAKING ALEVELS.

sir, permission to fall out and report sick  ¶ 21:41 1 Comments

  Stress is the consequence of the failure to adapt to change Although the Mids have just ended, the pressure's piling again.
With a new time-table that optimizes lesson time by decreasing the number of lectures, increasing number of tutorials and adding revision lessons/timetrials, it already shows that time is not on our side.
Getting myself to start a daily revision/practice routine is kinda hard, but is as necessary.
It's barely a few months left to the A's, and half the time to prelims.
It's mindless studying now and I do not really understand what all this is for.

Spending 1/4 (or even 1/3) of our lives studying ensuring a good 3/4 remainder,
seems rather logical.
But in this un-utopian world, it's rather unfair.
Studying and getting good grades do not assure you of a good place in the uni or a good job,
and I really find it's all up to luck.
I beg to differ with the line
'Doing well is by outdoing yourself'
I do not believe that performing well has anything to do with yourself, but others.
Outdoing others, to me is already a feat, and is considered as doing well.
Ensuring a place in the uni does not lie in how well you do, but how poorly others do.
Im the dependant factor now, not the independent.
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On a lighter note,
had a BBQ for jxwee's birthday at the condo beside PP which I still do not know how to pronounce.
Cote da Zur .
Anyway lotsa food, talk, and talk.
And went LAN-ing with the guys till morning.
And slept all day yesterday.  ¶ 10:58 0 Comments

  Hudgens! Mids are well over now.
Don't really remember much about the papers 'cept that they're badly flunked.
Don't really wish to talk about 'em either.

So much time on my hands I've been flipping through newly-released albums.
And oh boy, our (or maybe just mine) beloved Vanessa Hudgens.
No it's not cus of the nude that i started fancying her lols.

She looks different, and she really, really looks like.
Like..
Janet Jackson (...)

Oh my that's something bad D:
What happened to THIS Hudgens?


And not to mention her album still sounds like some Disney production lols.
When'll the kiddy songs end lol.

And there's the MySpace/YouTube singers.
Brilliant voices with nice self-written songs (unless cover-ed lols)
Singing with such convictions.
Check them out if you want.
Miaarose / Get cape, wear cape, fly / Kate Nash




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