自卑, Sounds better than 'to feel inferior', but that's how I feel sometimes yknow. When I see how people can work so hard just for their goals, sacrificing so much precious time, it just makes me feel this way, cnt help it.

I lose track of my targets and goals easily, and I'm not one with realistic selftargets to begin with. I start off all enthusiastic and all, and just run out of steam like *snap*.

I've been talking about saving money and all the bull, but I'm not taking any initiative nor doing anything to chnge my current lifestyle. I still initiate suppers, sit around and not look for weekend jobs, not starting a saving plan. I see my friends, some of them even willin to take up 2 or 3 jobs, just to fulfill this very same aim as like mine. 自卑, yes.

All the talk about losing weight and getting back in shape, hah. Okay, I've been running quite often and steadily now, but as often as I am still having those late night suppers and overconsuming my meals. Blahblah i'm fatris now.

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