It's the last day of the holidays.
Sometimes I just can't help but wonder,
are my days actually fruitfully spent, or do they just go by like that.
Some people seem to have everyday spent to its fullest.
As said,
You do not know whether today is your last.And I'm having such a horrible headache/fever/diarrhea now and I can't help but think that I've gotten dengue fever lols.
I've always had this thing about falling ill before exams.
I missed last year's Chem paper cus I was having stomach flu.
And I really, really think I'm gonna miss this year's GP (tmr, that is) due to this dengue-like fever.
And did I mention I often have this very lousy feeling,
that people around me seem to have something that they're really good at,
while I'm just good at doing nothing.
People often talk to me about future plans, about how they plan for what's coming,
plan for what they're gonna do next time,
plan for their future.
What goes through in my mind at that time is just an empty void,
with completely n-o-t-h-i-n-g.
That is something which I ought to change, lols.
Taking things one at a time just ain't gonna work in this real world I guess.
People drift apart.
And sometimes, coincidentally, the waves bring them back together again.
But the feeling's all different and all.
But I seriously hope that it could be back to what it was like before.
But nah, doubt it. People change.
And I really can't accept the fact that holidays are coming to a close.
4weeks of holidays.
A break
FOR studying,
and not what was expected, a break
FROM studying.
Another 10 weeks to go.
Followed by a week of holidays, and its the prelims already.
To be frank, I'm really scared.
But I seem to be doing nothing about it.
